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Dark thoughts as your legacy..

There is no way in hell I would let you back in
You robbed me from my kindness and used it as a toy
You played around with my love as if I give it to them all
You betrayed me, descieved me, you talked around my back
There is no friend like you
And i'm glad, cause after all you did to me
I will never let you back

I stood by your side while your life crumbled down
But you decided you wouldn't let me in
You cut me off like the string on a balloon
You let me floath away and let the wind carry me further and further away from you

You know.. a true heart can hold more than one person at a time
You dating my ex isn't a crime
It is you pushing me out of your life that should give you a life sentence

There comes a time you will stand alone
And eventhough you broke my heart
I truly hope that dark thoughts won't become your legacy
I won't let you back in, but if these dark times take place in your head
You know, you can always come to me

Broken glass

These dark thoughts may seem hard
But that is what life has brought
Achieving goals without any luck
Is like reaching the sky without wings, stuck
Stuck on the ground 
Unless you build and build
and build some more
To get your feet of that floor
That never ending bottom
That pit of despair

I'm searching for cement or glue 
Whatever will hold my bricks together
Cause what is set in stone will never vanish
And what is burned by love will never heal

I hope she will realize who she has become
A chaser of love while love was already found
That is our faith, us humans, we are bound
Bound to love, help and heal all others
But then get broken and tossed aside as broken glass
We can only try to recycle ourselfs and start again 
We humans, we create mess

Gun mij één dag

Jij sloopt mij elke dag
Je knijpt me, je stompt me
Je steekt met naalden in mijn huid
Je maakt me moe en lusteloos
Maar dat maakt jou allemaal niks uit

Ik kan niet meer, mijn lichaam is op
Mijn huid voelt blauw en mijn ogen zijn rood
En je gaat maar door, jij kent geen stop

Onzichtbare ziekte, 
Wat doe je me aan? 
Kun je me niet voor één dag laten gaan? 
Één dag zonder pijn en zorgen
Éen dag, zodat ik eens echt kan zeggen "Goede morgen"
Onzichtbare ziekte, 
Wat doe je me aan? 
Gun mij minstens één dag zonder traan

You

And to this very day
I still know.. 

In your arms i would melt
In your eyes i would drown
Your touch will make me weak
And i would not speak
I wouldn't speak a single word
Cause this spark tells all there is

A vibe that rushes my heart
A thrill that marks my soul
A feeling so surreal
A dream that has it all

I can not tell why our paths don't cross 
eventhough you still give my cheaks that warm pink gloss
I can not tell why i'm afraid
Maybe i'm scared of the messes i create
You see, wherever i go, trouble follows
And i wouldn't wish you all those sorrows. 
I'll never want you to see my pain
All i want to do
Is kiss you in the rain

A vibe that rushes my heart
A thrill that marks my soul
A feeling so surreal
A dream that has it all
I wish there was no pain
Cause then.. then i could kiss you in the rain

Lieve ....

Eventhough your eyes are now closed, 
I believe they've opened up. 
Opened up to true happiness and inner peace. 
You have spread your wings and followed your dream. 
I hope you'll visit us in ours. 

I want to thank you. 
Thank you for raising beautiful children,
who are as good at heart as you've always been. 
And I want to thank you for waiting. 
Waiting for the moment they were both strong enough
to spread their own wings and follow their dreams. 

This christmas and all christmasses in the future, your decoration will hang in our trees. 
Just to let you know, 
You will never be forgotten. 

Eventhough your eyes are now closed, 
I believe they've opened up. 
Opened up to true happiness and inner peace. 
You have spread your wings and followed your dream. 
I hope you'll visit us in ours. 

Lysfm

Hello lill angel
I want you to know
That i'll always be here for you
Trough rain, hail and snow

I'll be by your side till the end of days
I'll guide you trough the weirdest maze
If you need to laugh, i'll give you my smile.
I will send you a new selfie pile!
If you need to cry, i'll give you my shoulder.
I will buy you a tissueholder! 
If you are lost, i'll draw you a map.
So in the meantime you can take a nap! 

And if you need love,,
just know that i'll give you my heart,
my soul,
my everything. 
Hell, I would even sing. 

The girl you want is who i want to be

Sometimes you run away
From what you fear the most
Sometimes you run away
For who you care the most

In life we meet all kinds of people
And every single one teaches us something
But when life has other plans
Sometimes, we have to move on

I know we could have been perfect
You made me want to be a better person
Even better than i'll ever be
And i guess, that is what scared me

I am the girl who loves to shout
When something isn't going her way
I am the girl who needs to cry and hear someone say 
that life won't always go my way

I am the girl who has lost herself and will never let you see
That a part of me will always be
Like a lost boat at sea
That the girl you need
Is who i really want to be,, 
But sadly, that will never be me

You are the kindest
The purest and finest
You have a heart of gold 
And a soul filled with knowledge
But i am not that, not even a bit
I am the damaged
The most fearfull and faded
I do have a heart of gold
Only surrounded by the mess life created

I do this thing when i am lost
I panic and hurt people at all costs
I do not like this part of me
Not even a bit
I hurt people i deeply care about
My heart just hurts so much, i black out... 
I am so sorry for what i've done
You are really a loved one

Words can't describe how sorry i am
No poëm, no letter, no telegram
There is just nothing i can say
That takes us back, so i can change my way

You are the kindest
The purest and finest
You have a heart of gold 
And a soul filled with knowledge
You are one of the greatest persons i've met
But when i realized you are someone to cherish for life
I broke you instead
I hope karma will come
And my blood will shed

Why me?

You change my eyes
You change the way i smile
You rob me from who i am
You steal my pride and all my joy
You play me like i'm just a simple toy

You make my hands shake
and my body cold
You put venom onto my burning skin
You put salt in my open wounds
And you keep blocking my every move

Dear fibromyalgia, 
Why won't you just let me be?
Why me? 
Can't you see, you are torturing me? 


While my eyes are wide open

I dream of you
while my eyes are wide open

When i feel the warmth of the sun softly touching my skin
I pretend it's your body onto mine
When i see the moon showing it's light in the darkest time of day
I pretend it's you being here to say
That my blue eyes are all you want to see
My pure heart is all you want to know
and that my love is all you need me to show

I dream of you
while my eyes are wide open
I dream of you while my mind is still broken
I dream of fights over useless subjects
I dream of you
Of a love, to always protect

A place between heaven and earth

I just want to go home
A home where we can build our trust
Where everything is a possibilty and not a must
I want our minds to be free and empowered with love
I know there has to be a place that gives us all of the above

A place between heaven and earth
Somewhere we can hide whenever we're hurt
Somewhere our tears can shed and our thoughts can be heard
Somewhere
Where we can wash of all this dirt

I just want to go home
A home where i can bring back my smile
Where everything is just actually fine for a while
I want my heart to be warmed and my soul to be in peace
So let me find our home
Right now please, while i'm still in one piece


I miss you

I miss you
You used to be so kind
You used to be so strong
You used to be the one that said it's only a storm passing by
That the sun will always come up
Even if the sky looked dark and clouded

I know you didn't leave
I know you are hiding somewhere
I just need to find you
And be one with you once again

I miss me
I miss that girl with the bright blue eyes
I miss that girl with the heart that contained more love than she could ever handle
I miss that girl who conquers all
I miss me
Please come back to me

I say i'm alright

I say i'm alright
But honestly i'm done with this fight
My mind is racing
My heart is breaking
Leaving scars all over

These walls i've been building
I guess i forgot some walls can break down
The water is flowing in
And now i feel like i will drown
Drown in my own tears
My tears of hurt
Tears of trying to remain strong
For too long

Deceived

I want to end this, just check out and leave. No more pain or sad thoughts to recieve. Not to use my last strength just to believe. Believe that it will turn out fine, tgat my life will be devine.

I want to end this, just check out and leave.  It is life that makes me feel deceived. 

I will be fine again

There is no easy way to say this
No way to sugarcoat
For what i feel at this very moment
There is no antidote

My heart is breaking down
My faith, not within reach
I wish i could clean this up
With just a cup of bleach
Each and every spot
Gone with just one wipe

I am not the type
To sit and moan all day
But at this very moment
It is my bed where i lay
One moment to hide my eyes
Wich are now filled with tears
Just for now i'm letting it go
All my worries and all my fears

Tomorrow i'll be bright again
Tomorrow i will fight again
But at this very moment 
I will just cry again
Tomorrow.. I will be fine again

Deprived of all hope

There's a storm coming my way
It will destroy every thing that crosses it's path
Right now i feel like joining that storm
To teare every single thing apart
Every single one that has hurt me somehow
To see their lifes come crumbling down

But somehow i am that little ray of sunshine 
breaking through that dark, stormy cloud
I could never be the lightning 
Nor i could be the rain
I could never stop to wonder
What it would be to live without pain
To actually see that ray of light
When dark times have arrived
Instead of giving away all hope
And being left deprived

You light me up

I see the stars
and i smile
I see the moon
and i smile again
I see the clouds
and i smile even more

Every step
Every breath
Every heartbeat
Reminds me of you
My mind can't seem to erase
this wonderfull feeling i get whenever i think of you
My heart can't seem to forget
your wonderfull smile

I see the stars
and i think of you
I see the moon
and i think of you again
I see the clouds
and think of you even more
I think about you
and i light up
I light up, like i never did before

I won't waste my luck for you

There is a time to hurt
And a time to heal
Don't think i don't know how you feel
I can't be your hero anymore
I won't waste my luck for you
That is something i refuse to do

I will always do my best
But it's up to you to find the happiness
Your hurt is not mine to bare
Don't try to blame it all on me
That is just not fair

I'd wish for greater things

Stars are appearing in my eyes
I hope one day i can make a wish
Upon one of those stars
I can not tell, cause my wish will be dismissed
But i can reassure you
I'd wish for greater things
Greater love and deeper meanings
More of you and these feelings

I don't mind at all

The way you make me feel
is something i can't describe
It is a spark, a vibe
It is the way we collide

The way you look at me
is something i will never understand
It is the way you take my hand
Your love drowns me faster than quicksand

But i don't mind drowning in your eyes
I do not mind at all
Cause i just know you will always
be there to break my fall
I hope that will be the only thing you'll break
Well that and my stone hard wall

The way you warm me up inside
Is something i never want to miss
Just like your kiss
I wouldn't want to live without this
It is the way you make me smile
that makes me speechless for a while
I hope this will last untill we're old and senile

It is the way you hold my hand
Your love drowns me faster than quicksand 
But i don't mind drowning in your eyes
I don't mind at all

Dear life

Dear life
This is a note for you from me
I'm never giving up
I'll let you see
I'll grow stronger with every task you put me trough 
So bring it on
It's between me and you

I won't lose my faith in love
And i will never lose my strength
Maybe the path will be blury
But in the end
My calmness will return
And my bitterness will weaken
Dear life
I'll never be beaten