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Every one fears her
Now that I know the end
I'm searching for the beginning
The beginning of something new
Something to start over with
She lays in her bed
staring at the ceiling
Her eyes all wet
searching for something to believe in
Her soul so restless
Her mind locked in a cage
the heart, so precious
is now filled with rage
So empty inside
it feels like she's dying
"It will all be allright"
Like that will stop the crying
These feelings just won't go away
These thoughts are here to stay
Feel guilt all the time
For not getting up
She's admitting a crime
Every time she stops
Breating... silently asking for help
But no one hears her
She's asking for help
But every one fears her
Strungling with life
underneath her skin
Just keeping her smile
And then she gives in
She feels all her blood
slipping away
feeling like her body
just wasn't meant to stay
But then she awakes
and the strungling goes on
She puts up her smile
Like nothing is wrong
Her soul still restless
Her mind locked in a cage
the heart, so precious
is still filled with rage
Some say
These feelings I haveThey will not remain
As silent as before
These thoughts that I've got
They will not remain
As unheared as before
Some say; be strong
Have faith in yourself
Everything will fall in place
But what if some
Just lie for your sake
And leave you there with nothing left?
These feelings I have
They make me confused
More and more each day
These thoughts that I've got
They make me insane
And i can not seem to find my way
Some say; be strong
Have faith in yourself
Everything will fall in place
But what if some
Just make it up
To make you feel save?
Living my life
There might be better daysThere might be better ways
But this is the way I’m living my life
I just let it all go
I let it all behind
No need to worry,
No need to feel sorry
Just living the moment
Clearing my thoughts,
Clearing my heart
Setting my thoughts free,
Setting my soul free
Maybe some other day,
I’m prepared to live another way,
But for now, this is the way I’m living my life
This is the way I’m living
I walk like I can fly,
I talk like I can sing
I breath like I can make the wind
Today… I’m setting my soul free
She
You can not expect
that she sees everything,
hears everything
And in the end...
expecting she won't feel anything
There she is..
standing in the dark
Looking, staring at the moon
She's sitting on the sidewalk
looking at every one that passes by
Thinking by herself
what to do next
You can not expect
that she'll fly away,
far, far away
Caus she's no angel
She has the soul, but not the wings
falling apart
never meant to hurt younever meant to be
so confused
never meant make you cry
don't ask me why
You said me to rely on my heart
But that just made it all fall apart
I never should have trusted myself
cause now I dont know who I am anymore
Faith
Some things are meant to be
and some things are not
It's hard to discover
what means what
Like the leaf of a rose
floothing trough that long,
calm mountainriver
It's silent
Serene
but still, it says everything
everything that has to be said
You can't deside
what will happen next
You can't turn faith
into something you want life to be
We all have a reason why we live
We all have a reason why we stay alive
We all have a reason why we die
and we all have a reason why we fall in love
Over and over again
Like the leaf of a rose
floothing trough that long,
calm mountainriver
It's silent
Serene
but still, it says everything
everything that has to be said
Everything that has an honest reason
the reason faith gave every living creature on earth
Standing on the bridge
Standing on the bridgewaiting for a voice that says: it's okay
Thinking about all these people you'll hurt
standing on the bridge
with a breakdown inside
Broken like a butterfly
with no wings to fly with
Lost like a flower
with no dirt to grow in
Broken like the moon
with no light of the sun
Lost like me..
not knowing what's left
not knowing where to wait for
not knowing where to be alive
Standing on the bridge
waiting for a voice that says: it's okay
Thinking about all these people you'll hurt
Standing on the bridge
with a total breakdown inside
Standing on the bridge..
and then.. finally..
the courage..
to just walk away
Back to life, with nothing changed
All by herself
Her soul was meant to be
lost and out of control
But now she feels like falling down
to the bottom of the earth
Everything is turning round and round
she doesn't know where to stand
All by herself
all alone with no one to help
with no one to talk to
with no one who cares
Her heart was meant to be
empty and broken into pieces
But now she feels like staying away
from any one she knows
Everything burns around her
every step, every smile
Sometimes she feels like
she's lost everything of value
Like everything surrounds her
every sound, every movement
makes her feel like bursting into flames
At that moment she looses control
she starts screaming
and running away, into the most darkest allay she can find
Trying to hide from those sounds, those eyes, those feelings
but as always.. they will never fade away
She can't take it anymore
she's stuck in a world that's not made for her
All by herself
all alone with no one to help
with no one to talk to
with no one who cares
No one.. but her own miserable thoughts
Every lie will be exposed
Sometimes
a soul needs it's rest
Sometimes
a heart needs some warmth
Sometimes
a mind needs to know what's real and what isn't
All these thoughts,
all these feelings
It's hard to seperate
what's real and what's a total lie..
People lie constantly
about their feelings
about their soul
They say they're clean
they say they'd never lie to me
but every one does
And once a lie is told
it spreads like a disease
But every lie will be exposed someday
Just as I found out..
Not to trust any one
A lie is a disease
Which is spread over all human beings
People lie cause they don't want you to get hurt
Poeple lie cause they can't handle the truth
People lie cause they haven't learned to be honest
People lie cause they're sick inside their sick minds
My mind is about to explode
My soul is about to break
I have so much questions
Questions where I'll never have the real answer to
Why do people really lie?
cause they're scared of the truth?
Bullshit..
People even jump of the most highest cliffs
They say they're clean
they say they'd never lie to me
but every one does
And once a lie is told
it spreads like a disease
But every lie will be exposed someday
Just as I found out..
Not to trust any one
Not even your own heart
The one place to go
Maybe there is a placeA place a person can hide
from all the things in the world
From everything in life
A place, a place that nobody knows
Sometimes I just want to hide
Hide from people, hide from those eyes watching me
hide from my own feelings, hide from my own thoughts
Sometimes I wish I was like a fish..
People say they only have memory of 1 second
Stukje van mijn nieuwe boek
The empty soul
Angel or demon? Or creature of the night.
A heart filled with light? Or an empty soul in holes of darkness? There he was, leaning over me. I looked in his eyes, they were dark, like night. They looked worried, almost empty. Like there was no soul behind those eyes, no brain, no feelings and no heart.
I knew something was wrong. But he didn’t speak. It was like he lost his voice. He opened his mouth, but no sound came out. So he just continued to look at me. It made me nervous. I wanted to ask what was wrong, but as I opened my mouth to speak, he took my hand. Still looking at me with those worried eyes. His hand felt soft and warm. I could feel my heart beating faster and faster. I almost thought it would jump out of my body. He was tracing the lines in my hand now and I could feel his touch go through every single piece of my body. I could hardly breathe, but didn’t want him to notice, so I tried to breathe as easily as I could.
Then suddenly he opened his mouth. His eyes were closed and he was singing, singing in a whispering voice. I could barely hear what words he used, but still, I could tell what he was singing. He sang my favourite lullaby and I was shocked he knew. I never told anyone about that. My mom used to sing that song before I went to sleep. The last time I heard it, was the night my mom died.
He opened his eyes again and a little smile came through. He came closer and whispered in my ear. “I know more about you then you’d think.” His eyes became brighter and he smiled at me. A real smile, the smile I love the most about him. I couldn’t stop my cheeks from becoming red and I tried to hide it with a faint smile. Then his eyes turned back to the empty look he had before and he said he had to go. He went before I could say goodbye or something like that.
While laying in bed I was thinking this all through. How could he have such dark eyes? How could that smile be so beautiful? So magical? So sexy?
How could he know my favourite lullaby?! How?!
I imagined all kinds of things, stupid things actually. Like could he be something magical? An animal, transformed into a human? An angel? A demon? A vampire?
Yeah, I know, stupid right? I guess I read too many fantasy books. Maybe I shouldn’t do that anymore. I mean.. Demon? Hell no, too sweet for that! Vampire? Impossible. Angel? Well.. He feels good and warm and magical and sexy and special and all. But angels don’t exist. Right?
As I thought it through and made myself insane, I fell asleep.
That night I dreamed of an angel. An angel with beautiful wings, with a wonderful light around them. The angel was standing next to me. Although I couldn’t see his face, I knew it was him…
Can't be real
Whatever this isThis can't be real
This feeling so sincere
I want to know
if, whatever this is
If this, can be real
I am dreaming
It's so unreal
Last night, just so unreal
Your smile,
this can't be true
All what's real is,
that I wanna be with you
I follow your footsteps
anywhere
Wherever you take me
I'll be there
These wings take me anywhere
The time goes by so soon
One moment I'm with you
and the next.. I'm laying still in bed
All alone..
The dark room creeps me out
Knowing they are there
Knowing they want my help
But then I think about our nights together
And I easily... Fall asleep
Whatever this is
This can't be real...
It just can't be real
When the rain starts falling
And then the rain starts falling
I knew this was coming
but I didn't thought it would be so soon
The rain starts falling
there talking again
Touching me in different ways
touching my cheek, my neck, my hands
Some feel good with calmed and warmed
but some are strong and cold as they try
They all want help in different ways
Some make noises, some make signs
Some will touch and some will make me feel
All these feelings are hard to seperate
Sometimes I don't even know wich are my own
At one point I know
my head will blow..
All these thoughts of people unknown
all these feelings that aren't my own
It's weird and strong
and I don't know for how long
I can put this away
I guess, these feelings won't ever fade away
And then the rain starts falling down
They talk and talk and let me feel
At that moment I know
that all this inside my head.. is real
I know the pain isn't mine
And I let it go, with the raindrops on the ground
They dissapear in the earth
and I know they'll come back
But for now they're gone,
knowing.. I'm not ready yet
And so the story goes on
Each time, a little different
But in the ending..
When the rain starts falling down
There's always one to leave my side
At one point I know
my head will blow..
All these thoughts of people unknown
all these feelings that aren't my own
It's weird and strong
and I don't know for how long
I can put this away
I guess, these feelings won't ever fade away
But in the ending
When the rain starts falling down
There's always one inside my head
Vanalles door elkaar in mn hoofd
How can this happen?
this feeling, so real
Had it once, but it slipped away
the rest inside my head
Feels like a river to me
It flushes all the thoughts away
These words inside my head
they all just fade away
Don't need to hide
myself and those words
No fear of those words
slipping off my thoung
No fear of someone
taking this feeling away
In some way
I feel like I know him
being with him just feels so good
He does something to my heart
A good thing, a great thing,
the best thing ever
My head spinning arround and around
My heart making stops for little moments
A shiver,, running through my vains
That touch, was everything
It felt so warm, so good, so soft
Never felt something like that before
His fingertips tracing lines in my hand
while my entire body relaxed, piece by piece
And then his hands
so soft, so warm,, so,, indescribable
Touched my cheek...
Every single piece, every inch of my body
felt like never before
Trapped
Empty souls in holes of darknessTrapped by thoughts of lonelyness
Wandering around on a never ending path
Trying to reach the light at the end
My body is like those empty souls
Trapped by thoughts of lonelyness
No place to go, no place to hide
No place but a darkened hole
My eyes see people walking
Foot by foot, step by step
My eyes see the world
But my thoughts are trapped
Some souls are trapped
in body's they don't belong in
Some thoughts are trapped
because the heart won't set them free
Empty souls in holes of darkness
Trapped by thoughts of lonelyness
Wandering around on that never ending path
Trying to reach the light at the end
Whispering voices
The wind is blowing,
leaves start falling down from the trees
And I now it's wrong what I'm thinking,
but there's now way I can shut down
these voices in my mind
Whispering voices
telling me it goes wrong
Whispering voices
telling me it's my destiny
But I don't know what they're saying
I don't understand
Why they are talking
talking to me
The wind is blowing,
leaves start falling down from the trees
I know I have to find out what these voices mean
But I don't know how, caus there are to many voices
To many to know what they're saying
To many to let them dissapear
Whispering voices
telling me it goes wrong
Whispering voices
telling me it's my destiny
Falling down forever
And there it was
I fell again
I felt like I was in a waterfall
the biggest that ever existed
I couldn't breath
because of all the water slising in my troath
And I couldn't stop falling down
I wasn't able to hold on to anything
And there was no one around who could have catched me
So I kept on falling
At this moment
I'm still falling down
Only not so fast anymore
I'm trying to find grip
And then hold on till I'm strong enough
Strong enough to get myself up on the ground again
But it's hard..
I believe that's called gravity
It makes you feel helpless, weak
and sometimes lonely
Cause you'll always fall alone
It feels like I'm falling down forever...
It's going wrong
This can't be true
Not again..
Sleepless nights
Scared as hell
The feeling returns from long ago
I thought it was gone
Gone forever
But the feeling.. is way to strong..
There's something about to happen
Don't know when
Don't know what
Don't know how bad
All I know is..
There's something about to happen
And it will be strong
No more
I can see the things around me
Moving like it's in slowmotion
My mind overloaded
with thoughts I didn't knew they'd exist
The power of these thoughts
are stronger then ever before
My mind is overloaded
I wish, I couldn't think nomore
The fear of letting go
The fear of holding on
The fear of being hurt
The fear of ending up alone
The thinking will never stop
The fears will never go
But will I ever know
how to make the voices leave my soul
My mind is overloaded
I wish, I couldn't hear nomore
A voice inside me sometimes tells me
that everything is going to be just fine
At that moment I can relax for a little while
But then I hear another voice
and it all starts all over again
I know she's here
Trying to help me
They are all here
They know I can hear them
But that's allright
Cause one day I will know
how to make the voices leave my soul
Then my mind won't be overloaded
and the fears will dissapear
On a cold winterday
Dreaming of things
you can't explain
Thinking bout you
day after day
I can't resist
the thoughts bout you
The desire I have
won't fade away
The moment I close my eyes
a shiver starts to rush
into all the vains
of my entire body
My soul get's an experience
you can't imagine
The thoughts are real
just as real as the beating heart
of every human being
falling in love
and wich heart is filled
with dreams and hopes
The words keep falling
on the cold stones
on a winterday
Every thought
just disappears
when I look at you
My soul, my body, my heart
every little part
shaking..
Like the eart is falling apart
and all dreams
just fade away
Like a sandstorm in the desert
on a cold winterday
...